in that brief, still moment i lost my job no, I didn’t lose it i was holding onto it for dear life and it was taken away from me like a favorite toy from a child who was playing with it for too long 20 dedicated years…some 6000+ days well, yes, I guess, I lost my job because I feel the hurt of work going on without me, i have an empty space inside of me where the people I played with used to rest i miss the sense of purpose that came from being of service there but, in a brief, still moment sitting in silence and the spaciousness that had opened up before me i saw myself soaring like a bird riding the thermals high above the beautiful earth available to live life completely on my terms to fully move my face in the direction of my dreams in that brief, still moment I realized I was free.
There are years that ask questions, and years that answer.”
~Zora Neale Hurston
2020 is definitely a year of asking questions.
At least for me.
I’ve noticed how I tend to ask myself lots of questions. Questions for which I don’t have answers. Or at least I’m not ready to delve deep enough to find the answers.
Perhaps there are also years that rest in silence. Years where answers sit in a place of refuge from the bright light of clarity. Years where answers take sanctuary from the free fall of questions.
I searched this blog for ‘slow’ and the results came back with 10 posts, of which Slowing Down was the top of the list. A cancer diagnosis, an unexpected health crisis, the death of a loved one…those awaken a need to slow down. I remember, though, in my work in the corporate world that I was hungry for an intentionality, a consciousness, a being that was often challenging to find, given people running around on autopilot and an organizational emphasis on speed.
I picked the morning sunrise photo because starting the day with the sun rising invites a slowness, a stillness. When I remember that morning walk on playa de San Agustinillo, in my body I feel the sense of peace and possibility for the day.
More encouraging words about going slow are here: