We’re all authors

Ibiza Spain
We’re all authors

We’re all authors.
Our minds are always writing stories. 
Oh, the drama that goes on in there! 
Mostly we don’t even realize the pen is at work. 
But those habitual patterns of thought, 
those beliefs we hold
and assumptions we make,
pour out to fill chapters in our book. 
Amusing, lighthearted stories, 
stories of danger and fear, 
stories of hate and love, 
sadness and happiness. 
Endless themes for our fickle minds. 
The novellas we love - and those we hate – 
shaped by our engagement in the world. 
It all comes to us in a rush - 
what people say, 
how something makes us feel, 
our basic human needs - 
and we scurry to scribble out our truths 
onto the page where everyone can see them. 

Walking in the West Oak Cemetery

Dakota (my vision for Nugget)
Walking in the West Oak Cemetery

Our path is well worn with quiet company 
and silent memories. We walk this way 
nearly every day, an adventure of sorts for 
me and my dog, Nugget, a big brown bear of a dog,
ever curious, even as his hearing dissipates like summer rain on a sidewalk. He’s blind now, but that seems to have only heightened his courage, not stopped him at all from looking at everything with fresh young eyes. He shows me the meaning of beginner’s mind, slow strides shape a sense of optimism, intrigue, and mystery. 

The air is crisp, one of those days when birdsong
sounds clearer, with the fall breeze rolling in
as if the sea were near. Just a month ago 
the sun was bright in the sky and the air
was warm as a winter’s fire in the den. 
The light around us has a smoky orange glow, the last of the sun squeezing her light through 
the old oaks that border the west perimeter 
of this graveyard that is our walking world. 

Nuggie leads me along at a gentle pace,
not the hurried rush of his youth, or mine. 
Sniffing every tree along the gravel path 
that meanders through this little spirit village – 
as if he’s never been here before. 
What is it that makes him linger? 
The sweet scent of a comrade he’d like 
to meet one day, nose-to-nose, I suspect. 

Sometimes he paws at a patch of grass,
like there’s an answer to a question he’s been asking his entire life. I confess, I tend to lose my patience after he’s done this 3 times, so I give a little tug on his leash and he reluctantly lifts his gray old face offering the most pathetic of expressions, as if to say “Really? This is my joy!” 

Nug disappointed with me, and me 
disappointed with me, we amble along. 
I lose myself in the crunch of my boots 
on the pebbled path, the swish of my sweater
as my arms move to the rhythm of our walk.

As the first fall leaves drip from the sky,
my little Nugget lifts his moist dark nose
as if he can smell the passage of the season, 
and understand how dying makes compost for the living.  

This poem is also part of a collection I put together called Little Morsels of Delight.

the rug that hung over the rolltop desk

The rug that hung over the roll-top desk

Remember when we bought the rug that hung over the roll-top desk? 
The one we purchased for that empty white wall in the new house we were moving into? 
Where the previous owners had some ridiculous stuffed animal head – was it a 6-pointed deer? –  mounted dead center over a dark blue velour sofa? 
The one we found during our summer holiday in 2001 on Santorini, our first Greek Cyclades island adventure? 
In the shop with other hand-made delectables, like pillow covers and table cloths?
Where you could almost feel them sitting next to you, the Greek women in their wrinkled black cotton dresses stitching with their papery, well worked hands? 
Remember how perfect we thought the rug was for the space?
How together we picked a curtain rod and hooks – that you painted black - from which to display it? 
Oh, to see it as we came down the stairs, across the vaulted ceiling, sweetening the living room with her fragrant flowers! 
So many times I sat in the old white Naugahyde chair, my feet propped on the ottoman, admiring the symmetry of the design. 
Yes, and the little giggle of joy I felt when I could discern the little hearts that formed the petals of the flowers,
And thought what a perfect way to celebrate our love, with the rug that hung over the roll-top desk.